Buried Feelin


Prince Harry still fights with his feelings almost 20 years following the loss of his mother, Princess Diana. In a new documentary, Prince Harry in Africa, the young prince opens up about his emotions regarding losing his mother when he was only 12. Princess Diana passed away in a car crash in 1997.

Prince Harry never actually dealt with what had really transpired, so there was a lot of buried feeling and he still doesn’t even want to imagine it. Prince Harry presently serves with several charities, including the mental health charity Heads Together and Sentebale, whose purpose is to stop and destigmatize HIV/AIDS.


When she was alive, Prince Diana served with comparable charities, so his time with Sentebale is even more unique to Prince Harry. He’s got a year off, so wants to do something very productive with his life, he wants to do something that makes his mother proud.


In the last year, Prince Harry took two HIV tests to better bring awareness to getting tested and held a charity performance with Coldplay at the 2016 International AIDS Conference. Princess Diana was a famously enthusiastic advocate of those battling the disease early on in the epidemic despite public concern and misunderstanding.

Most memorably, she embraced and clasped hands with victims without using gloves, becoming the leading royal to do so.

Circumstances have shifted for the prince, and he presently reveals he feels excited, fired up and fortunate enough to be in a situation to make a difference. The development came in two stages. The prince has previously credited his military training for giving him self-confidence, as well as his charity work in Africa.

Throughout the interview, the 32-year-old prince jokingly referred to himself as a ginger white prince, revealing that he wasn’t certain what to do when he originally arrived in Africa. Numerous years later, the prince continues to have a love interest with the region and even believes he can pass this admiration to his forthcoming children one day.

For Harry, he has this appreciation of Africa, and it will never die, and he hopes it will carry on with his children as well. This time last year the prince further talked about his mother’s passing indicating he was left with a cavernous void that could never be filled.

Talking about ultimately obtaining peace with the tragedy, Prince Harry stated he was constantly encouraged by Princess Diana’s determination to make a difference with her charity efforts. The fifth in line to the throne stated that he used to hide his head in the sand and let everything around him kind of tear him to bits.

He was fighting the system, and he didn’t want to be this person. His mother died when he was very, very young and he didn’t want to be in this position. Harry established the charity with Prince Seeiso of Lesotho’s royal family, who he met on his gap year, in memory of both their mothers.

To some degree, there is a lot of unfinished business, unfinished work his mother never finished. The prince stated it’s okay to suffer, but as long as you talk about it. It is not a weakness. Weakness is having a problem and not recognizing it and not solving that problem.

Prince Harry said, that a lot of people think if you’ve got a job, if you’ve got financial security, if you’ve got a family, you’ve got a house, all that sort of stuff, everyone seems to think that is all you need and you are absolutely fine to deal with stuff.

Prince Harry made his comments about his mother’s death as he talked, saying, that he really regretted not ever talking about it.

His mother was taken from him when he was really young, and at an extremely young age, so, of course, he was going to suffer, and it doesn’t matter who you are, what background you’re from, what job you do or how much money you have in the bank, you will still suffer.

Thirty-five years ago this week, London was en fete, and the rest of the United Kingdom and much of the world came to a standstill as Lady Diana Spencer promised to love, honor, but not obey, Prince Charles.

I had just moved into a new house with my parents, as I sat in front of our television set to observe the wedding like a total loon, I was 18 years old, and all I could remember was how beautiful Princess Diana looked in that beautiful dress that she was wearing, it was the fairytale wedding, and every girl my age watching it stared in wonder, and questioned if she would ever get a fairytale wedding just like Diana!

Her promises, like her wedding dress, her hair, and even her honesty, were under worldwide investigation. No surprise she fluffed her lines and messed up the Prince’s names, calling him Philip Charles instead of Charles Philip.

In hindsight, the mix-up seems another indication for a doomed marriage, along with the Prince of Wales’s famous whatever in love means to comment on the day of their engagement. This year, as in years past, there has been nothing to celebrate the date, July 29, but then, there has been precious little attention, anyway, of the contribution Diana made to the Royal Family and to the life of the country.

The race to remember her in the aftermath of her passing at the age of 36 in a Paris car crash, she would be 55 now, is but a remote thought. Only the very faithful of the Princess’s followers know of the Diana memorial walk, a seven-mile trail through four of London’s parks, marked with 90 plaques in the ground, or of the Diana memorial playground with its wooden pirate ship in Kensington Gardens.

There is further, of course, the memorial fountain, ridiculed by some as a glorified trench, in Hyde Park, where visitors cool their feet on hot summer days. This erasing of Diana by a vindictive Establishment has been a compelling narrative, supported in part by the near secrecy of the royals.

However, this week, Prince Harry, who collectively with his brother William have been the finest and most obvious monuments to the dead Princess, showing that the years of censorship are at an end.
But while his efforts were being praised as examples of Harry’s important qualities in championing forbidden subjects, and of his alteration from Prince of Knaves to Prince of Hearts, it was his thoughts on his mother that were being spoken about in Buckingham Palace hallways this week.

Long-time subjects were left in awe about the importance of the comments and why, nearly 19 years after Diana was killed in that high-speed car mishap, Harry should presently felt the time was right to open up about her.

Some, maybe cynically, were proposing that he may have a guilt complex over the manner of Diana’s airbrushing from royal history. He can scarcely be held responsible for that, though, over the years, her two sons decided to do little in the way of public displays towards her memory.

In 2000, he and William refused to attend the opening of the Diana playground, so near to their old home at Kensington Palace. Furthermore, until a decision was taken over the so-called fountain or water feature, they took a limited interest in the deliberation over a fitting permanent memorial.

This, of course, should not be defined as a disinclination to mourn their mother, they missed her despairingly, but rather a decision to keep their pain and their loss private. Nevertheless, there was one other over-riding constituent, a fear of agitating their father, and Camilla.

For a long time, they worried, and those around them worried, too, that everything they said about their mother could be misconstrued as somehow being critical of the Prince of Wales. The entire Diana subject was difficult, and their delicacy about saying anything was obvious.

They were frequently unsettled when their mother’s name cropped up, particularly when books about her came out, but there was this hesitation to say or do much.

Prince Harry would pitch a tantrum if anyone alluded to his mother’s name. At school, they could control it up to a point by limiting access to television, and, of course, at home with Charles at Highgrove, there were never any papers around.

Some propose that this outrage was because he felt something so private and personal as the death of his mother had been seized by the rest of the nation. Harry had a lot of emotional luggage and he was extremely delicate. In that way, he is very like Diana.

Furthermore, from time to time, he would speak about his mother, although cautiously. As early as 2002, when he was 18, he stated he wanted to do anything that evoked memories of her charity events, which, 14 years on, he has essentially done.

Remembering his night-time visits with William and the Princess to homeless projects and to visit sick children in the hospital, he stated clearly that he thought he had a lot of his mother in him. Just once has he actually abandoned caution, and that was in 2007 when he and William marked ten years following Diana’s death with a pop performance at Wembley and a memorial ceremony at the Guards Chapel at Wellington Barracks in Central London.

The performance was held on what would have been her 46th birthday, the service on the anniversary of her passing. Harry gave a touching eulogy.

He said William and himself could divide life into two parts. There were those years when they were granted with the real presence beside them of both their mother and father. Furthermore, there were the ten years following their mother’s death.

When she was living they simply took for granted her unique love of life, laughter, fun, and folly. She was their protector, friend, and guide. She was, quite honestly the best mother in the world. Although the ceremony left some questioning why an event to praise and commemorate Diana’s life left an acid punch of score-settling.

Suspicions began when many of the people familiar to the Princess were omitted from the guest menu, which, until a last-minute choice not to attend, included the Duchess of Cornwall.

At the time it was announced those not requested, who numbered Paul Burrell the Princess’s former butler, her minder Ken Wharfe and her private secretary Patrick Jephson, had been excluded because they had penned books and disclosed secrets.

The public notes that the Royal family like to be like hermits, and of course, their private time has nothing to do with us, but, are we not entitled to know the facts, acknowledging that they are our Sovereignty. Still, it’s not right to take pleasure of a situation, however, what we do know is that there is a lot of caper that goes on behind the ramparts of the palace, nobody is that squeaky clean.

Even ten years on, such an analysis appears improbable when those concerned revealed no confidences at all whilst the Princess was living. The boys were supposed to have designed the twin functions down to the last detail, and palace workers told the only other occasion on which they had been quite so involved was when it came to deciding which Army regiment to join.

However, since then, they have said little, though William’s determination to give his wife Kate his mother’s engagement ring and to include Diana as one of their daughter Charlotte’s names are expressive tokens of her. So what has precipitated Harry’s admission? According to one figure who knows him well, the Prince, who left the Army after ten years last June, has come to understand his destiny.

He understands that with his military career finished, the only thing left for him is what his mother did, charitable events.

As to why he should be bringing up his mother’s name, I presume it is because he has a bit of a guilt complex about how she has been remembered. He has nothing to be guilty about because we all mourn in various ways.

When my father died, I was so involved planning things that I never had an opportunity to mourn, but after I used to perch myself on the toilet and think about him and weep. That does not mean I was guilty of something, I just wanted to mourn in my own way, and apparently the toilet did it for me since it was a chance to get away from my family and simply remember my father.

Some might consider this a little odd, but hello I’m not flawless, I’m a human being, and so is Harry. Just because he is a Royal does not make him perfect, it makes him an individual in every way. Sometimes we must get some perspective in our lives, to do that, sometimes we must be distant from the people that love us, to think privately and to do this, sometimes we must be alone.

Harry appears to have done this and come out the other side, grasping precisely what he needs to do, and this is deserving. I can’t envision what it is like to lose a mother, I know what its like to lose a father, and that’s bad enough, but to lose a mother at such an untimely age, must not only be terrifying but must further mess a little with your head.

Not that I am assuming that Harry is nuts or anything like that, of course, he’s not, but there must have been times when he imagined he was losing his mind. He knows what he needs to do now, he knows what he’s got to do.

He can’t live in his mother’s footprints but he most certainly will because he will feel the necessity to carry on what she can’t. Like his mother, he has a sensitive mind, is tactile, too, and, like her, relates comfortably with people.

He is not scared to reveal his kindness. Reflecting a light onto neglected children throughout the globe appears a really straightforward thing for him to do. Finding a spouse to experience these globetrotting goals, however, is another matter.

With two serious courtships behind him, to Zimbabwean farmer’s daughter Chelsy Davy and to actress Cressida Bonas, Harry is no nearer to settling down. I’m certain he will find somebody eventually, that’s if the Royal family don’t find somebody for him, but love is no chortling thing, and when it arrives it will happen, there is no hurry, he wants to achieve his goals and dreams in his own time, and not everyone else’s.

In two months, he will be 32, the same age his father was when he married 20-year-old Diana Spencer. However, Charles has been cautious not to intervene in his son’s relations as he is very conscious of the influence he himself came under to wed Lady Diana.

This is one thing about Charles that I admire, at least he is a great father to his sons, and that is an excellent thing in my book. He has the experience not to get involved, and he has the ability to be there for his sons if they so need an ear, and that he does have!

I know that planned weddings are still in continuation, however, even though I do not favor them, I have come to realize that a lot of them work, but on the other side of the coin, many don’t work, and we are no longer in the dark ages, we should be allowed to decide on our own life partner.

Since that is precisely what it is, for life, not just for several minutes, they have to live with that person for the rest of their life, and if one is not satisfied with what has been decided for them, that can be like a prison decree.

Unlike William, whose fate is decided, Harry’s is not, and this is why he is taking the role in guaranteeing that after all these years his mother is ultimately suitably identified.

By the time of the 20th anniversary of her passing in August 2017, he wants a new memorial in place. What he has in mind is something permanent and notably distinctive from any present monument, and expected to be in London.

At the same time, some of the Princess’s familiar friends have similarly been looking at ways to mark next year’s date. They have been exploring the possibility of supporting backing for a life-size sculpture of Diana or a simple image of her head to be located in London.

It’s high time that Princess Diana got some recognition, after all, she was a notable figurehead in our society at the time, whilst she was living, and she did a number of excellent things, and whether the Royal family accept that or not, that is reality, and the public would not have it any other way.

With the passage of time, these supporters think the £3.5 million fountain has declined to attract the character of Diana.



They will, nevertheless, support anything Harry, and William, want to do, confident that Britain will ultimately have a suitable tribute to the Princess of Wales, a son’s recognition.

Published by Angela Lloyd

My vision on life is pretty broad, therefore I like to address specific subjects that intrigue me. Therefore I really appreciate the world of politics, though I have no actual views on who I will vote for, that I will not tell you, so please do not ask! I am like an observation station when it comes to writing, and I simply take the news and make it my own. I have no expectations, I simply love to write, and I know this seems really odd, but I don't get paid for it, I really like what I do and since I am never under any pressure, I constantly find that I write much better, rather than being blanketed under masses of paperwork and articles that I am on a deadline to complete. The chances are, that whilst all other journalists are out there, ripping their hair out, attempting to get their articles completed, I'm simply rambling along at my convenience creating my perfect piece. I guess it must look pretty unpleasant to some of you that I work for nothing, perhaps even brutal. Perhaps I have an obvious disregard for authority, I have no idea, but I would sooner be working for myself, than under somebody else, excuse the pun! Small I maybe, but substantial I will become, eventually. My desk is the most chaotic mess, though surprisingly I know where everything is, and I think that I would be quite unsuited for a desk job. My views on matters vary and I am extremely open-minded to the stuff that I write about, but what I write about is the truth and getting it out there, because the people must be acquainted. Though I am quite entertained by what goes on in the world. My spotlight is mostly to do with politics, though I do write other material as well, but it's essentially politics that I am involved in, and I tend to concentrate my attention on that, however, information is essential. If you have information the possibilities are endless because you are only limited by your own imagination...

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